Back on Track

Thank you to my blogger friend for mentally reminding me that I need to write in my blog. I am a little jealous that I have to type this on my blackberry, not a notebook. A lot of things have happened since I wrote in June. And in my last post I was frustrated with all the bad things happening... Little did I know that was just the beginning. It started on a Sunday night, towards the end of June. Slade woke up in the night crying that his legs were hurting. He goes a couple days laying on the couch and then I realize he hasn't been walking. And when he does he cries and falls over. His "wonderful" drs office says they can't get him in until Thurs, even with me stressing my concern. So we take him to the ER. We leave there with us saying he's constipated. I inform them that he has had regular BMs. So we stick it out until thurs. Him getting worse and worse. The dr thinks it is some viral that affects the joints, but to rest my concern he will admit him to the hospital. After the first night his Dr said he tested positive for strep and they would start to treat that. Doy and I swapped days/nights. Thankfully family helped with the other 3. They put him under to do a MRI of the brain, then the next day put him under again for a spinal tap. After 3 long days the neurologist diagnosed him with Guillian Barre Syndrome. It is a temporary paralysis which affected him in his legs, and could last up to 6 months. The neuro said he would def be going home in a wheelchair. The odds of this syndrome are 1 in 100,000 and follow a viral infection. We also found out the he has IGD, immunoglobin deficiency, and he has and always will have. So we decided to do a 5 day in patient treatment of gammaglobulin. It is a very rare medication that is used in war. They administered it late at night thru IV, also neurontin for his nerve pain. It had the reverse effect on him it made him extrememly hyper. So no sleeping at night. But every night he would want us to lay in his bed. I was wanting to blog while I would lay there at night with him. All the things that go thru your mind when your life changes dramatically. It made me realize all the petty everyday things that we stress over, and look at that compared to the big picture. What we are sent here to accomplish. I would just lay there awake and watch him sleep and shed a few small tears and thank god for all I have in my life. You know what's very ironic is that ever since Slade was born I always had this feeling and fear that something bad would happen to him. And one night Uncle Dustin stayed at the hospital and me and doy went to Panchos. I told him about my feeling and he said he had always had that feeling also. So I guess I was not crazy! Slade has a special soul. He lights up every room he is in, and everyone loves him and his charm. So the last night of treatment they let us take him home. Me and Dustin loaded him up around 11pm on July 3rd. The day before my birthday. We were at the hospital fo 8 days! We took Slade for many wagon rides during that time. We put him in a bed of pillows, tied the IV pole to the back of the wagon and Slade called that his trailer. When we left he was starting to regain his strength and attempting to walk again. We went up to Prescott on the 4th. It was a little draining for him.Uncle Dustin had bought his wagon which we used in place of a wheelchair. He was very fatigued and irratable in the beginning. At home it was hard to balance him plus 3 more but he has gotten better and better and today if you looked at him you would never know. He's doing great! He has actually started potty training this week. He's doing awesome!
Another thing that happened was a lifestyle change for me. Exercising, eating healthy, being aware of what I eat. I have lost 25 lbs and couldn't feel better! I have started a new job in Scottsdale as a cna and I like it! I am also going thru the steps to become a Correctional Officer!
Well that's as much as my thumbs can take at the moment... I will continue to work.

Nothing else

So instead of wondering why me, I think I will start believing that it is ok because nothing else bad can probably happen to me. Knock on wood (knock knock). Lets start with saturday... on my way to work... the 202S is closed! so I detour, get back on get up to the 101S and the ramp is CLOSED!! so i get around that, get back on where I need to exit southern... you guessed it! CLOSED!!! So none the less I was LATE! So i head home and "I" (quote from doy) broke the black truck! A tie down got caught in the driveline and so I pull off to the side of the freeway because it sounds like the whole engine is falling out of it! So I hang out on the side of the freeway for a while waiting for doy to rescue me. And the AC went out AGAIN in the tahoe. This time it is a more expensive part. So i drove ac-less for a couple days until my insurance rescued me with a nice little Rav4 lol.

Other than that badness, Aiden has started summer school. I have had barely any hours!! It's ok I suppose, I have completely over hauled my house! I did new window treatments, painted over the giant hello kitty in springs room, the boys have a bunk bed that will hopefully be in soon, we got 2 new tables! 1 big, 1 little. 12 chairs, so come on over! I re-finished the desk, black with nickle plated knobs. It turned out so cute! So then I made my mini office in the living room... after i did that I realized the cable for the internet was not out here... props nto doy for running it thru the attic... lol. I painted in my room, cool jazz and breakfast blend. IT's full speed ahead!

The boys' party is saturday. Everybody who is somebody will be there. It's a pretty big deal. lol

I haven't taken pics in forever, but once I do of my new place I will post them up.

And please excuse my christmas background I dont want to delete all my widgets!

Friends!

How many of us have them? Friends! This is just a general vent that I would like to know why everyone has to be so dang moody! I feel like the majority of people I am around are unpredictable I tell you! What is everyone so bothered about that they can't be nice. Um maybe I should just blame it on the economy like everything else!
I am getting a little further on my home office. The L desk I want is just too expensive! Ill keep watching craigslist, but for now my target clearance one will do! And I got a new ringfolio. So now I can plan what to plan in my other planners. Am I getting out of hand? I have my calendar journal, I now have a family calendar hanging up, I just got a mini journal to write random things to do in for my purse, now I have the ringfolio! And of course my precious blackberry!

Im crazy

Working 60 hours a week I have become obsessed with organizing and painting in my house.I got paint for springs hello kitty wall that I painted! I am over the light blue and green in the boys room. I have come to the conclusion that my room needs to be my sanctuary now. I am going to create a mini office in my living room, and take that out of my room! My room is the only room not painted! So I just think about this all day, cause I'm not there! We have all been sick with this stomach bug!! No fun! I went back to the gastro fri for a follow up and my thyroid is out of whack! My brain is working harder to produce the chemical, so I will go for labs and probably have to go to another specialist! I have decided on june 6 for brogy and aidens party. It will be huge, so save the date! Alright I'm going home soon, I am done for now!

I think

I am ready for retirement lol. That's kind of bad huh. I don't think I will go to the job fair tomorrow for these reasons: tired, still feel like throat needs to be plunged, far drive, and I am losing hope. As my 6 months of experience is nearing I begin to question myself. I actually have a lot of questions for myself. I feel like a zombie. Like I have no personality left anymore. I work. I sometimes sleep. And between that do laundry and clean. At the same time I also feel like I am neglecting the babies by not staying home with them. Do you ever know what is right. Of course having $$ is good, but would I rather not. Some of my peeps I love! They're greatn but these nights in the chair start to wear on you. I can't give up on what I started! Something will come along. At least I paid off my tahoe last week! One less thing to think about!

Perspective

Well I'm just sitting here. working... Just like everyone comes in and says oh your just her cna. Haha. I still have to say I really like my job! And something I thibk about occasionally is how I get paid to do this job, but it pays in more than just money. I have picked up so much wisdom in this short amount of time! I have for the past couple months still been eating my original cream of wheat with fat free milk, dash of sugar, dried cranberries, and walnuts. If I have fresh bananas I do that instead of cranberries. Yum! And I have been looking for these green banana bags that my other guy has. Always something new! I suppose its because you're stepping into someone elses lifestyle and you take a little bit as you go. I wonder too as much as I am trying to get into the hospital, am I going to enjoy it as much? Since I've been employed time has just flown by!
I went with Aiden on his field trip last week to Peter Piper. We got to walk there and make pizzas. This next part I'm sure you will find amusing. We were sitting at the table and his teacher comes up and says to aiden, are you exited to have a new brother or sister? Insinuating I am pregnant, when really I have 4 kids worth of belly fat. So he says yes! So then she says is it going to be born before school is out? So I say no, because its true, because I am not having a baby! Then she says maybe aiden is having problems in school because the new baby that's coming. Aiden has been having bully problems, therefore trying to fake sick every morning to avoi going. His teacher and I are working together to get this resolved. So then the lady at my table is like oh you're having another one? - said no! So we walk back to school and I am signing out and another lady says oh this is number 5? I said try to smile and don't say anything. This makes me want to call and schedule a tummy tuck like today. Its not just belly fat, its skin! How in the heck am I supposed to work out! I would rather spend my time off with the kids!
Havasu was tons of fun! I will post up pics from my comp!

Over a month!

Where the heck have I been! And what have I been doing?? Well I have a lil down time while my client is resting so I am typing this from my blueberry! That's what I call it. Well one story I have is my humiliation at Target thanks to my precious 2 year old! First off he was being bad the whole time! He woke up tooo early! So I'm having to hold him while I push brogy, and we get out to the car and I'm parked by the curb. There's all these high school kids hanging out in the parking lot. So I push the cart against the front of my car while I put brogy in. I can see slade trying to rock the cart so I tell him to stop or he's gonna fall out! Well he doesn't and the cart crashes off the curb and all my stuff is all over the parking lot. He's screaming, all these kids are laughing. I'm dying. I go put him in and roll his window down (AC is out in tahoe) and he spot a HS girl and instantly stops crying and starts making eyes at this girl! I went like one week without working, then this week I worked 4 16s. I got called off it because I closed my eyes for a few mins and got snitched on. And no I didn't get fired! I actually did what I was supposed to be doing. Next week looks pretty busy too. I have actually compiled a chronological list of purchases I would like to make with my extra income. New bunks for the boys is one of the top ones. There's actually one I'm looking at that a bunk plus trundle! That would be perfect! Update on my backover...the case was closed because the guy gave nme false insurance info! Yes! All of you probably know already how my blueberry got stolen a week after I got it! My mom and I and spring were at frys. Actually it was friday the 13th! Well while I was loading my groceries someone took it out the top of my cart. Before I even pulled out I realized it was gone. We searched the carts and everything. I try to call to get it disconnected and it says they're not open. I have my camera on the phone set up to send any new pics to my email. Well at midnight I finally get thru and get it shutoff, go to check my email before bed and at 1145pm a pic had come thru! It was of a back room and some chemicals and stuff. At this point I'm very angry and frys was under construction, so they had closed at midnight.so me and karen go down and question everyone working. Nothing! So the next day I go in, talk to the mgr. Well on tues they had recovered my phone. It was stolen by a construction worker. He took my sim card, but I was so grateful to have it back! And the foreman gave me a $50 frys gift card. I am going in on the 31st for an upper endoscopy. Hopefully something will come out of it! And brogy is crawling now! And to my blogger friends I tried to comment you but I don't think it worked from my berry!