Friends!

How many of us have them? Friends! This is just a general vent that I would like to know why everyone has to be so dang moody! I feel like the majority of people I am around are unpredictable I tell you! What is everyone so bothered about that they can't be nice. Um maybe I should just blame it on the economy like everything else!
I am getting a little further on my home office. The L desk I want is just too expensive! Ill keep watching craigslist, but for now my target clearance one will do! And I got a new ringfolio. So now I can plan what to plan in my other planners. Am I getting out of hand? I have my calendar journal, I now have a family calendar hanging up, I just got a mini journal to write random things to do in for my purse, now I have the ringfolio! And of course my precious blackberry!

Im crazy

Working 60 hours a week I have become obsessed with organizing and painting in my house.I got paint for springs hello kitty wall that I painted! I am over the light blue and green in the boys room. I have come to the conclusion that my room needs to be my sanctuary now. I am going to create a mini office in my living room, and take that out of my room! My room is the only room not painted! So I just think about this all day, cause I'm not there! We have all been sick with this stomach bug!! No fun! I went back to the gastro fri for a follow up and my thyroid is out of whack! My brain is working harder to produce the chemical, so I will go for labs and probably have to go to another specialist! I have decided on june 6 for brogy and aidens party. It will be huge, so save the date! Alright I'm going home soon, I am done for now!

I think

I am ready for retirement lol. That's kind of bad huh. I don't think I will go to the job fair tomorrow for these reasons: tired, still feel like throat needs to be plunged, far drive, and I am losing hope. As my 6 months of experience is nearing I begin to question myself. I actually have a lot of questions for myself. I feel like a zombie. Like I have no personality left anymore. I work. I sometimes sleep. And between that do laundry and clean. At the same time I also feel like I am neglecting the babies by not staying home with them. Do you ever know what is right. Of course having $$ is good, but would I rather not. Some of my peeps I love! They're greatn but these nights in the chair start to wear on you. I can't give up on what I started! Something will come along. At least I paid off my tahoe last week! One less thing to think about!

Perspective

Well I'm just sitting here. working... Just like everyone comes in and says oh your just her cna. Haha. I still have to say I really like my job! And something I thibk about occasionally is how I get paid to do this job, but it pays in more than just money. I have picked up so much wisdom in this short amount of time! I have for the past couple months still been eating my original cream of wheat with fat free milk, dash of sugar, dried cranberries, and walnuts. If I have fresh bananas I do that instead of cranberries. Yum! And I have been looking for these green banana bags that my other guy has. Always something new! I suppose its because you're stepping into someone elses lifestyle and you take a little bit as you go. I wonder too as much as I am trying to get into the hospital, am I going to enjoy it as much? Since I've been employed time has just flown by!
I went with Aiden on his field trip last week to Peter Piper. We got to walk there and make pizzas. This next part I'm sure you will find amusing. We were sitting at the table and his teacher comes up and says to aiden, are you exited to have a new brother or sister? Insinuating I am pregnant, when really I have 4 kids worth of belly fat. So he says yes! So then she says is it going to be born before school is out? So I say no, because its true, because I am not having a baby! Then she says maybe aiden is having problems in school because the new baby that's coming. Aiden has been having bully problems, therefore trying to fake sick every morning to avoi going. His teacher and I are working together to get this resolved. So then the lady at my table is like oh you're having another one? - said no! So we walk back to school and I am signing out and another lady says oh this is number 5? I said try to smile and don't say anything. This makes me want to call and schedule a tummy tuck like today. Its not just belly fat, its skin! How in the heck am I supposed to work out! I would rather spend my time off with the kids!
Havasu was tons of fun! I will post up pics from my comp!