A thought before bed

I am sooo tired, but I really want to write a couple things before I zzz. First... I spent the day in the company of a long lost person in my life who has recently relocated down here. Someone I won't name, but hopefully you will get who I'm talking about. Every since she got here she has been stuck on how she left this item at her old place. or this item there. Even though she has a "new" very nice place, with all new things, somehow it isn't good enough, and she insists she is just so unhappy, has no "friends" etc. Besides the fact that me and my 4 kids are here, that doesn't matter. So after hearing dwelling from the past (say at least 10 years) I tell her to quit. and that she needs to start taking anti-depressants because everything she says is negative or pessimistic. She replies that she can be if she wants. and that she has nothing... (Gasp) are you friggin kidding me?? no really! I tell her that she's alive. and knowing what she's been through I would partly consider that a miracle! I don't get it. She otherwise seems happy, but seems at the same time that she is trying extremely hard to "act" angry. I will never be this... I will never be this... I will never be this... I will be there 100% for my kids, be their mom, eventually be a grandma. and I will love it. Every minute of it, and I will NEVER make them feel like I don't.

Secondly, when I went to wal-mart tonight they had a whole tree of gifts to buy for CPS kids. Just reading the tree broke my heart. I could never imagine these kids who have nothing. They don't have parents or family. I thought I had to worry about my kids' Christmas, which is never lacking, but man that really put my day into perspective for a minute! Well its 12 am so I should probably get to bed. Happy Birthday Doyle!